Frederick Pollack
Title Poem


I know it happened, and await a déjà vu
to clarify when
and where I descended from trees through scrub
to grass, a surprisingly broad valley.
Was the sky mottled and cool, or hot and stagnant?
Did the fence I recall belong to a bureau or firm?
It's unclear - as are the road and parking lot
that must have been before me, and the appointment,
probably tenuous, I brooded on.
In those days, at the end of a day or drive
or thought, there was often a girl, who might
be possible.  Or a severe, maturing
theory.  Or the troubled counsel of friends.
Of all this, all that's left is that slice of meadow

and a white, corrugated shed
with a sealed grey door
among untrampled weeds, and above the door
a yellow, humming, flyblown, wired light.
- I don't know why this image bothers me.
Is it the waste of power, or power?
Some randomness, a redundancy in daylight?
The wait for night, when effort is less futile?
It isn't even clearly a negative image.

And I don't know where I'm going.
I live the way I remember:
discrete points, unconvinced interpretations.
Yet I move, and rarely seem to stumble
in my own vast shadow.